Wondering why I decided to name my blog ‘Budding Regardless’?
Well, the whole idea of me creating a website dawned on me right after I ‘found’ myself (the first time I did, at least) – right after I started feeling like I have things figured out and I know what I want in life. Okay, maybe that’s a little too far-fetched but I had spent literally day and night thinking about what I wanted in life and what I want to spend the rest of my life doing and blogging was a huge percentage of the things I wanted to do.
Taking into account that my name (Mbalenhle) means ‘beautiful flower‘ I decided to replace ‘growing‘ with ‘budding‘ since flowers bud. The ‘regardless‘ was there because well, with or without anyone supporting me I was pretty convinced that I am definitely going to grow in anything I choose to dive into.
- I thought to myself that even if some people do not approve of me and what I do, I am still going to grow.
- Even if there might be people who do not understand what I do and why I do them, I am still going to grow.
- The obstacles that will try to put me down, won’t stop me from growing either.
- If I ever ask for help from someone and they aren’t there for me, my growth will not seize to happen.
- Negativity and positivity will help me grow even more.
The point is – I am going to succeed regardless!
Learning and unlearning is something I feel like we all should do, it is the root of all growth. Holding yourself accountable and being honest with yourself is crucial! No one gives us a manual on how to life. We are just bombarded by everyone’s ideologies, opinions and unconsciously start adopting their mentality. Taking time to zoom out of life and critically thinking about what your values are, what you believe, how you define certain words like ‘success’ and why you do the things you do is the first step to budding regardless.
I honestly don’t know where I would be and what in this world I would be doing with my life if I had never spent so much time just thinking and evaluating things. Emotional, spiritual and especially mental growth make me who I am today (I have given up on physical growth, I am clearly not going anywhere – I have been this size and height for the last 12 years).
Reflecting and rethinking my actions, the social groups I mingle with and how my heart thinks has made me realize that in order for one to grow, there are certain habits and people you might have to cut off.
I have such wonderful people in my life and it’s pretty scary and rare to be surrounded by beautiful souls and they have contributed so much to my growth and the decisions I now make which differ from the ones I used to make.
Budding Regardless has become my home which I just want to run off to whenever I need to express my feelings on certain things. It has become my child who I want to take care of and a child I want to see grow and flourish. There might be people low-key wishing I would just stop and there might be people who have become so hooked on the content I post and there might be disruptions that will hold me back from posting on schedule however, the website will keep Budding Regardless.