Why I decided to name my blog ‘Budding Regardless’? Well, the whole idea of me creating a website came right after I found myself – right after I started feeling like I have things figured out and I know what I want in life. Okay, maybe that’s a little too far-fetched but I had spent literally day and night thinking about what I want in life and what I want to spend the rest of my life doing and blogging was a small percentage of the things I wanted to do.
Giving my blog a title wasn’t much of a hassle considering that I am forever and always thinking of random things and finding ways of connecting them.
Taking into account that my name (Mbalenhle) means ‘beautiful flower’ I decided to replace ‘growing’ with ‘budding’ since flowers bud. The ‘regardless’ was just there because well with or without anyone supporting me I was pretty convinced that I am definitely going to grow in anything I choose to dive into. I thought to myself that even if some people do not approve of me and what I do, I am still going to grow. Even if there might be people who do not understand what I do and why I do them, I am still going to grow regardless. The obstacles that will try to put me down, won’t stop me from growing neither. If I ever ask for help from someone and they aren’t there for me, my growth will not seize to happen. Negativity and positivity will help me grow even more.
Growth is such an important thing to me because I honestly don’t know where I would be and what in this world I would be doing with my life if I had never spent so much time just thinking and evaluating things. Emotional, spiritual and especially mental growth make me who I am today… I have given up on physical growth, I am clearly not going anywhere – I have been this size and height for the last 8 years.
Reflecting and rethinking my actions, social groups I mingle with and how my heart thinks has made me realize that in order for one to grow, there are certain habits and people you might have to cut off. I know that just gave you an impression that I have literally cut ties with everyone but haha, no such. I just know my place in people’s lives and I have learnt to put people in their appropriate places – pedestals only. Those that aren’t on pedestals are not in my life at all. I have such wonderful people in my life (I have officially overused “in my life”), it’s pretty scary and rare to be surrounded by beautiful souls and they have contributed so much in my growth and the decisions I now make which slightly differ from ones I used to make.
Budding Regardless has become my home which I just want to run off to whenever I need to express my feelings on certain things. It has become my child who I want to take care of and a child I want to see grow and flourish. There might be people low-key wishing I would just stop and there might be people who have become so hooked on the content I post and there might be disruptions that will hold me back from posting on schedule however, the site will keep Budding Regardless.