Can we all just agree that this year went by really fast but then it dragged at the same time? For all of us, every year has its ups and down and some years have more ups than downs and some have more downs than ups. This year has been the most consistent year of my life – there was a perfect balance of ups and downs and the downs were my very unnecessary depression episodes. The greatest ‘up’ of the year is me finding out 24 hours ago that I have completed my degree. The year is over now and in this last post of the year I will be reflecting on what happened, my feelings towards the year, any lessons learnt and my hopes for the year ahead.
What happened in 2018
Undoubtedly, this year has been a year of adventures. Honestly, I would say loneliness is what pushed me to start doing things I had planned to do aeons ago but I will get to that in a bit. I explored almost all the spots in my city and out of it, I literally had something to look forward to every single week and not only was I exploring physically, I explored mentally too by spending more time researching/learning something from the internet than being on social media.
For the first time in 8 years, I was single for longer than 1 month and strangely enough it wasn’t necessarily because I didn’t want to be in a relationship but because this year I was overwhelmed with so many things that needed my time and attention. School stressed me before it even started, I had to keep my blog alive and popping, I wrote for 4 companies (3 international and 1 local) to improve my CV and gain experience, I was in and out of doctors’ rooms and even got diagnosed with anxiety and sinus. Too much was going on which resulted in my loneliness and isolation – I literally had no time for anything else.
School has been the sole reason behind my depression and anxiety and I am beyond thankful to my mother for calming me down every single time. In all my academic years, this one was truly the toughest of them all and it’s purely because I was really hoping to get that degree so I can focus on doing what I want to do and after all that stressing and oversleeping and mental breakdowns, I got my degree!
Hopes for year 2019
I already sense that the year ahead will be a good one purely because I am not a student anymore and creatives will understand because they know how hard it is to stay in school. I don’t have new year’s resolutions per se, I just hope that some things happen. I hope that I will stop doubting myself because I actually know what I am capable of and I hope luck follows me every single day.
I want to travel and see more of the world through my own eyes, I want to capture every authentic moment and all the beautiful scenery. By ‘capture’ I mean writing, filming and taking pictures. My main focus will be living in the now and exploring as many places as I can and as much as I can. Also, I am hoping to do more research online and really expand my horizons in every way possible.
Not taking care of my mind and body will not make any of this possible so I need to nurture myself and this year really showed me the importance of this. There are also a number of rituals and routines that I am hoping to practise which include meditating and unplugging. That’s all – travelling, capturing and taking care of myself are my only ‘goals’ for 2019 and I have kept it that simple because there is no need for me to put myself under pressure by trying to achieve multiple ‘real’ goals, I just want to take it easy.
That’s it for now and that’s it for this year. Thank you for reading this post, visiting my blog, subscribing to my blog, recommending my blog to someone else and reaching out to me, your loyalty and love makes a huge impact in my life. Happy holidays and love and light to all.