You have this tendency of doubting your abilities even though you know how much you are capable of and this is the main reason why you fear starting anything – you are afraid that things might not work out. How will you know for sure if you don’t start though? You spend some (if not most) of your nights thinking about what shoulda, coulda, woulda happened and you don’t realise what a waste of time and energy that is because it is not helping you focus on what really matters – the present and the future.
You worry too much because you fear failure, forgetting that every failure comes with a lesson. By now you should already know that life isn’t all about wins so why do you fear catching an L? You also tell yourself that you can’t do certain things and go certain places because you don’t have the money for it, not realising that making everything about money can hold you back from actually doing what you want to do.
You have given up on love and scared to love again because you feel like you have opened up to people too many times and got hurt. Here’s the thing though, it rarely happens that someone falls in love once and stay with that person forever so keep pouring your bottomless love and when the time is right bottomless love will meet bottomless love and you will live happily ever after.
You don’t know that it is okay to have a meltdown for a whole week and it’s okay to feel like nothing is working out for you because that shows that you are trying, so keep at it and take self-care breaks when you feel like you absolutely need them. You act like you are tough, savage and heartless but you do that to mask your sensitivity because you have a good, loving heart and pure intentions.
You are stuck in the past and worried about repeating the same mistake twice but what you don’t realize is that that’s holding you back from moving on from your past traumas. You constantly feel as though you are not where you are supposed to be, no matter how much you progress. You know what you should be doing but have no motivation to do it because of the self-doubt again.
Here’s what you should take away from this, we all go through things honestly, even those that seem to have everything in tact so don’t beat yourself for not being as happy or has successful as others are or ‘seem to be’. “Dala what you must” – do what you have to do and don’t be in a rush to catch up with anyone because you don’t know where they are headed so stay in your own designated lane. Stop thinking that you are not good enough for someone, you will always be good enough for the one who is right for and you will know that. Don’t forget to be thankful for the little progress that you make and opportunities/chances you get and also keep in mind that everything is happening just the way it is supposed to happen.
That’s it for now,